As my residency comes to an end if feels like just the beginning of so many things for me as an artist, shaman, and personally. At the midpoint of the residency I had moments that asked for me to pause myself in every aspect.
Some were truly wonderful like: moving into new personal and professional spaces (home and studio) and many unexpected amazing exhibitions/performances showcasing the works I created throughout 2019.
Other moments asked for deeper reflection and to stop and honor the journey of family members that passed away at the end of the year. Culturally honoring the end of someones life is both a celebration and ritual act of letting go of what was known of them in the physical form. This practice involves traditional ceremonies like repass, viewings, funerals, and gatherings in remembrance with those who loved and were impacted by that life. Additionally, often other rituals honoring the loved one who is no longer with us in body also can take place over many days and even weeks. This time is a gift to process feelings and spend with those you love.
I took this time for myself towards the end of 2019. I paused my creative making. I adjusted my schedule. I canceled commitments in order to be present, mindful, and thoughtful during my moment to feel their passing.
This time to pause happened during my residency. I appreciated the SciArt family and my partner Sean M. Montgomery Ph.D. for their support and understanding. As human beings, we often equate our value to how much we produce; our productivity. Our bodies are magnificent machines, yet our value is much greater than labor. We should all celebrate ourselves out loud, on purpose, with intention unapologetically. We should also hold as much space for what we need, when we need it, and listen to how we feel always.
It is a new year and a new decade. 2020 has me thinking about all the things I am looking forward to and everything wonderful on the way. Also, appreciating all the amazing things that I have (including experiences, people, things, and most importantly myself).
My partner and I talked about so many magical ways for our collaboration to unfold. We shared what we are most passionate about both as professionals and personally. This experience is a gift that I will truly treasure! I am excited for the potential for us to continue the journey and hopefully bring to life new things based in cross-disciplinary collaboration. I am also so excited to see how EmotiBit impacts the world!
I am so happy that I have been a part of this program. I can’t wait to see what happens next. Thank you so very much!